You could try asking any of the band (as was) to throw in a few of these old numbers if you ever get the chance to see them when they become rich and famous. And they'll probably laugh nervously and change the subject.

Where The Sky Is Darkest     Destiny... Sunsets Only Seem To Bleed

Fallen Victim Waiting To Die Where You Are Faithless

(I've trimmed this section to just include stuff that we played. These are songs we stuck with and generally played at gigs.)

Where The Sky is Darkest (Kirkup/Denyer) "I wrote this and thought it would be in a similar vein to Ash's 'A Life Less Ordinary'. Al had other ideas and re-wrote most of the lyrics when he did the music. In particular, I'd like to know how the bit about Jesus fits in." My mind slips away upon the breeze this summer's day My thoughts drift away to fantasy, infinity You lay in the sun feelings I don't betray Just gaze upon your face, watch your eyes Chorus: You know nothing of this Nor shall I confess But I can't endure This loneliness Loneliness... I sit in this field and watch the trees as they sway Black clouds coming down seem ever urban grey Chorus & Solo I would say I do believe in Jesus Christ my friend She's no goddess, just a selfish ghost like me And in me she lays all her hopes You see I've touched negativity Chorus Loneliness... Loneliness... Loneliness... Loneliness... Bereft of success... Yeah, life is a mess... Destiny... (Denyer) "We haven't done this one in a while—but hey, Pete's getting better at drumming all the time so we could probably pull it off now. There's some good song underneath the shallow chorus." Resistance is futile, don'tcha know It's all *decided* for us By a man in a cloud with a fat cigar We're all good friends on the happy bus Chorus: On parole? Take control! Throw it all up, let the good times roll! Take control! You're losing your soul! To the scum-sucking molluscs who can't see your role! ... It's our destiny It's our destiny Life spent bowing to fate is cheap Easy way out for the whores that weep No will of their own, just praying to keep A hellish existence in pits so deep Chorus (Solo) What'll ya do when they bust ya ass For rippin' off Hendrix and smokin' grass? Yeah! we got a diff'rent kinda class Life's a test... we ain't gonna pass Chorus It's our destiny It's our destiny Sunsets (Kirkup) "Al changes the words virtually every time he sings this, so these isn't definitive by any stretch of the imagination. Quite an upbeat song, which is odd for us." This tower high above the rest of the world This tower high above the filth of the earth Looking down on clouds and mists as they fade and swirl No-one will see my face or touch my skin NO hands that reach, caress to draw me in Chorus: So cry alone when the sun sets I feel so high when the sun sets Watch for me in the sun's rays Death scares no-one up here Not up here The day seems faint, but still in sight Hour after hour, drink after drink until night I want to walk dark streets, walk in the fields They say that the saddest time of the day could be now Chorus (Solo) Chorus Only Seem To Bleed (Williams/Kirkup) "This song is nowhere near as bitter as it might seem by the words. For once, I really like one of Darryl's solos—it's the only one where the guitars really mesh together." I saw you talking, laughing, walking But you never acknowledged me Chorus: Sometimes I'm blind, I've tried, I've cried in shame I walk down this empty road I've come to call my own I send postcards to myself - so lonely I try to speak but no-one would hear Chorus I keep thinking about what might have been I the world had been just a little different I shot the planes out of the skies Chorus (Solo) I always tried to be like you But I only seem... to bleed like you I always tried to be like you But I only seem to bleed like you Chorus Where You Are (Macleod) "Darryl never shuts up about how this song was written in half an hour on the back of a bus. He claims that it's about no-one in particular, which must mean that it's just an excuse for him to do a really long guitar solo at the end, presumably." It's been a long... lonely time... Since your love... was mine... Verse One: Now I'm standing in the rain Things have never been the same Can't comprehend the cost Never realised what I lost Chorus One: If you can forget the past I know we can make it last Don't make it too far I'm going where you are Verse Two: Ain't got much to say Don't let it end this way Well I was just a kid Can't condone what I did Chorus Two: So I'll say a prayer That you'll still be there I'm not going too far 'Cause I'm going you are (instrumental the length of a chorus) Both Choruses again & a Big Solo Fallen Victim (Denyer) "The only song I've ever written that's meant something personal to me. A slow builder with a kick-ass solo which can be sung up- or down-beat." The rain keeps right on falling but it's me that hits the ground Tried to scream a warning but you couldn't make a sound Now I'm falling, I don't think I'm ever gonna stop Climbed the stupid tower steps, jumped right from the top Chorus: Falling, falling, falling down, I can't help myself, A lazy little spiral that goes all the way to Hell We're the same, I told myself I fell in love with you But in my mind you're just a stupid bitch without a clue My life shoots down a dark pit I can't see hope anymore Keep on praying that I'll wake up when I hit the floor Chorus You just think I've lost control and I just can't let go Well, teenage angst has no substance, it's just a gutless show My feelings best just quietly whined or better left unsaid Surely this'll come back to remind me that I'm dead (Solo) Falling, falling, falling down, and I'll end up in Hell, Or am I there already and are you in there as well? Chorus Waiting To Die (Kirkup) "Distinctly moving in performance—I don't think that Al is suicidal, but he certainly sounds it on this. Anyone want to let us in on what's going on in this guy's head?" You saw the rain in me So I'll be leaving We know the killing started here It's always best to leave while they're still sleeping Your tears won't bring us back to you... Chorus: Waiting, we are waiting We are dying in the flame Burning, we are burning In the cold and in the rain I am a negative destructive force For me love is so unreal Reminders of the sadness you forget In death there'll be no emptiness You pray Chorus (x2) Faithless (Macleod) "If Darryl doesn't shut up about songwriting in the back of buses, we're gonna hang him with one of his guitar leads. Somewhat derivative of Metallica." It's too late Got a direct date I've gotta hold out for my fate You battle through life Disillusion is rife Is there a reason? I'll wait and see I wanna go I need to know Take me to a higher place Probe my mind Tell me what you find Do you see that? There's no shame in me Am I losing my soul? I'll wander alone Ain't got no place to be I need to go I wanna know Take me to a higher place (Instrumental) I need to believe Don't try to deceive You can see there's You know there's You see there's No faith in me